More thoughts from the unemployed...

Life has always been good. And despite my last blog entry, I haven't sunk into a low depression. There are moments where I still feel the stinging betrayal from the layoff, but in the past, I have always felt that life happens for a reason. Always.

And sometimes, we must need a little boost from Above to get moving... And as it has probably been planned, Scott has wowed a geotechnical company in Wilsonvill, and has been promised a job soon. Probably after Christmas.

In the meantime, we have put the house up for sale... we are packing up most of our stuff into a storage unit (to aid in getting rid of the clutter for buyers)... and I am feverently looking for work in Portland. The planner in me has set up a spreadsheet, calculating the money I have from the layout stipend, add in unemployment, and take away all my bill payments, etc. Money will run out, but not for a quite a few months. And that doesn't include Scott's income, when it happens. And that is better than I expected, so I can breathe for the moment.

Scott, Connor and I went out for dinner tonight. We spoiled ourselves and had our dinner in a restaurant. Scott and I couldn't help but indulge in a little wine and beer. After all, life is short. And because sometimes we are only reminded how short a life can really be from a close one's death, I try to really relish what we do have in life. It's so important. In an instant, a life can be snuffed out.

I don't want to be remembered as the girl who always had her nose to the grindstone and never looked up. You know the one, the one in the group to always make a plan to plan things. However, I know that will be inevitable. I am exactly who I am. I know and have accepted that I can't handle living without a steady paycheck. It's hard to not know what's up ahead around the corner. But if this break in work has taught me anything , it's that life should be enjoyed. Life is short. Scott and I are even thinking of taking a low cost road trip. After all, we have the time on our hands.

Try this: If you tilt your head a little to the right, close your eyes for a second, take a deep breath from your belly, clear your head, and try to change your perspective to this:

Life could end any minute. So, just live the life you want. Love as many people as you can. When something is funny, laugh really hard. From your belly. In the end, you will realize that your wonderful life has already happened.